One step at a…one step at a….one step at a time.

So, the title comes from a song I sang in elementary school, for some play or something. I can’t really remember much other than that one line. Must have blocked it out. In any case, it’s been a few, of course. But, I’m not going to beat myself up about it. Because today is a new day and tomorrow will be even fresher. So, moving on…

I’ve decided, and through much frustration, I can’t change everything in a matter of days. I want to be a “full time working but also can at least keep the house clean” type of gal. Impossible? Yeah, I think so too. But I wanted to at least do the most I can and feel like at the end of the day I did a little of both in those two worlds. As I tried to dive right in, I usually found my self doing the tug of war with just me and my onsey. Which just ends up with me lying in bed absolutely loathing myself for not getting up and doing something. I am lazy. I realize that and want to change it. I know, I know, I’ve heard it before “But you work full time and you need to relax”. But, I can’t relax when there are things to be done, dishes to be cleaned, showers that are getting the orange mold that I’ve only seen here in Arizona, carpet so embedded with kitty litter that I feel I’m walking around at the beach, cat hair that has now turned our love sac into a massive fur ball, a fridge filled with week old meals and now has a funny smell when opened, and so on and so forth. I’ve got work out a balance. A one step at a time deal, if you will.

So, this week’s goal is to make a chores list. There are some things that need to be done daily, obviously, and then there are some things that need to be done once a week, and then there are those that can be done every other week or so. I’ll give myself till Tuesday night to figure out the list and then Wednesday to post it. That way, I have to get it done? Right? RIGHT?!

Right.

Le Sigh

I don’t really want to figure out how long its been since the last posting. I guess I just don’t really know what to put on this little sucker. I like reading other’s blogs and I like to look at other people’s lives. Heck, I even just like to look at others pictures. But, either I really don’t have the capacity to sit down and update this on a regular basis, or I haven’t figured out what other’s would find at all interesting to talk about. I work, go to school, and then repeat. Find sleep in there somewhere. I really don’t want this to be a journal entry either, just cause it’s private and the internet is huge and vast and a lot of who cares anyways. And frankly I get embarrassed easily, soooo the end.

But, from recent events in my life, I have come to realize that I lack a voice. I’m far too easy going. I don’t like to cause problems and don’t make an opinion about anything. Instead, I keep it in my head and let life drift me to wherever it will.

Maybe I can find a use for this then to get out of my comfort zone and contribute to this life I call today. So, I’ll create a list. A “Things I Want To Do But Don’t Because Of Whatever Odd Reason” list. And then I’ll try to complete it. A goals list of stuff that I want to change and work on.

Prepare yourself for domestication, Ms Britni. You’re not a college student anymore living from one test to the next. Responsibilities include a Husband, two cats, and family/friends who deserve a great friend in return.

I don’t expect a complete 180, or that I’ll like what I try. I understand that I’m not a crafty person or that I don’t have a lot of cute “Mormon Mommy” projects. Cause frankly, I have no clue how the heck they come up with that stuff….But, I do want to try. And I do have the desire to potentially be the best that I can be. A guess you’d call it a hobby search. And a try at domestication, my worst enemy.

Next step….a list….which shall be great….and glorious….and probably something that I’ll just have to keep on adding to as well…